Knowing is not knowing

I’m thinking “knowing” is not knowing. “Understanding” is not understanding. I suppose I would have a hard time not being a loner since I’ve always (in this life) been one. If I think I know or understand than I truly don’t. Japanese temples are guarded by two statues at the entrance. (Paradox and Confusion) It is said there that “TRUTH” can only be seen through the eyes of Paradox and Confusion. I really believe it!

We are so used to thinking from our limited perspective of sight, smell, etc, and our habitual energies that we tend to see things as having a beginning and end, or being “just so”.
Truly nothing is just so, and everything is just so. Everything has a cause and an effect with no beginning and no end!

Now if I can only remember this every single day, my habitual thinking can turn into habitual “not” thinking. Just doing and not thinking. JUST DOING. Not dogged determination. Not doing for a reason or no reason. Just doing. Just being.

I want to still “do” stuff. I just don’t want to see it as a means to an end. I don’t want to see it as a goal or important. The universe works very well without my interference! Kinda like rowing against the current. I would rather put the oars up and drift with the current! Life is a continuous never-ending stream. Why struggle against it? hahaha

Of course I do struggle. It is my habit! One I am attempting to overcome by “not attempting”. Just “doing, not doing”. (to quote the Tao Te Ching).