Just Jump (my comments on my cousins blog)

I’d rather jump out of a helicopter into the ocean (and I have many times) than be completely relaxed (be myself) in front of most other people. Fear is only rational on an individual basis. I remember being a skinny little kid. I tried to use what wits I had to keep from getting beat up. So far so good! Also other kids and some adults spoke cruelly to me. I think that combination has caused me to shy away from people in general. I don’t find it irrational. It makes sense to me! Someone could say that this behavior could be a disadvantage for me. Maybe. I’ve known a number of people to die or become crippled by automobiles, motorcycles, and sporting accidents. I’ve also read in the news of many people getting killed by other people. I’m not saying we should all worry about every little thing, I’m saying it is probably quite natural to worry about things that we relate to.
Faith or even despair might cause a person to overcome a fear. I believe (faith) being honest with yourself and others is vitally important to overcoming fear.
It may sound counterintuitive, since I commented about myself NOT being relaxed in front of other people. And so it is! I still believe it. I am learning. I’m learning to have faith. I have found that the less I guard my ego, the less others will guard their ego. Not %100, but it does work. What about getting trampled? I guess I’m just getting used to it as I get older. Sure some will trample you. At home or work it might not be a problem. Obviously in a riot it could be a real problem. I believe that trying to be the person that I believe that I should be is very important. Keeping at it is extremely important to me. That means getting up after I fall down. What about God? I believe God and truth run hand in hand. Telling the truth to yourself, telling the truth to others, being REALLY honest is the way to run hand in hand with the light of God.
So why is it so difficult? We make things difficult don’t we. I suspect that was the message in “Just Jump” Dustine. Maybe we are here so we can work on getting it right. Love ya Cuz!